The Weekend

What happened to me this weekend?

I invited many friends back to Gettysburg for reunion weekend, I made special effort to pay attention to my wife, I worked hard to be quiet and calm and still, and somehow my life went sideways.

My wife and I fought in furious anger unriveled by any previous fight.

My friends witnessed the darkest side of my personality and wondered who I had become.

I gave myself over to evil for the sheer joy in making others suffer

I broke hearts

I acted like my mother

I hate myself for this weekend, but hope in myself for making the right decisions to keep it from ever happening again.

I hate Alumni Weekend - it always makes my life hell - or I let it make my life hell.