Sunday, March 19, 2006

The Long Awaited Update

Hi gang,

So, yes, I have been in and out over the last week and 1/2, and I know that I've been more out than in, but I have a reason.

Here's the skinny:

A number of you know that I struggle with a variety of issues, most of which I have dealt with rather well. Those aside, and even with the death of Father Phil, I've been trying to fight the good fight.

The outcome of that struggle has been my keeping my head above water - something I am happy about. However, I fully admit that the last six months or so have been troublesome at work. I am way behind my goal for the year, my program is lagging, and the pressure is mounting. If we don't meet our goal, offices on campus won't be able to spend their discretionary budget lines. That doesn't make people happy. On top of that, participation by alumni in our fund is a determining factor for the U.S. News and World Report rankings of the school - if we don't raise the dough, the ranking suffers, and the entire college suffers.

People have been watching us closely, and the tension is constantly thickening at work. A little over a week ago, we had a meeting with an outside auditor. I lost my cool. I was out of line and innapropriate; not enough to be fired, but enough to draw significant negative attention to myself. I admit that I was wrong.

Two days later (last Monday morning), I was given one of three choices as a result of my continued and exacerbated stress. Since then, Jillian and I have been looking at our budget, determining our options, and praying. Lots of praying.

I have to make a decision by Wednesday of this week on what I want to do (we have made that decision - we think, but have others to consult before revealing our thoughts), and notify folks at the college.

As you can imagine the stress has been unreal, and the tumult amazing. Jillian and I have been forced to do some real thinking! Our lives could undergo a major and difficult change, and regardless of what we do, things will be challenging.

Pray for us, if you will!