Saturday, May 20, 2006

A compassionate high priest

I read this snippet in Hebrews, 4: 14-16:

Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast to our confession. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but only one who has been similarly been tested in every way, yet without sin. So let us confidently approach the throne of grace to receive mercy and to find grace for timely help.

This afternoon at a loss, with no more brilliant flashes of insight, I slid to a horrendously disheartening stop at the tollbooth of "no next career ideas." I felt useless. Alone. Stupid. Afraid. Depressed. Anxious. I was an emotional wreck, and for much of the night I have been resenting myself and God for his asking me to suffer through this thick, choking fog. Then I remembered that passage in Hebrews. The whole book is written to foster our spirits, and it should! My Savior has been tested in every way, yet remained truthful to his Father.

He had fire for God, even when brutalized on a cross. I want that same fire as I carry my burdens, helping me to accept truth, sorrow, and difficulty with peace and humility.