Question 13 - from Amanda

Question 13: Have you become the man you thought you would be? Or are you still getting there?

Amanda: I am the woman I want to be… but I am tied up into a package waiting for someone to come by and open me up. Let me know that it is okay to be who I have become. I have all the characteristics of the person I saw myself becoming when I was 13 or so, I am still getting there in terms of doing what I want with life and letting myself pop out of that package all by myself.

me: I don't think I am the man I want to be...and I dont' know if I'll ever get there. I want so very much to be normal...to be free of my emotional pain and hurt...to be the person God calls me to be...to not hurt others...to have the strength to say no when I shouldn't say yes, to say yes when i want to say no. I want to have the courage to write, to not fear. I hate fear. It is such a part of me and it needs to be cut out like the tumor it is.

Question 14: What is the one toy that you don't have now that you really, really, want?

Me: I really really really want a membership at a Country Club. Just to say that I'm going to the club. How snotty and pretentious, but I would just love that chance! :)